"Clear your mind of what was and will be, see only the task that is."
Zedd - from the Legend of the Seeker
Sharing the news with everyone has been quite the experience for me ---- always the healthy one, always the one top in health and not wanting to share any kind of sickness, thinking I was giving in to it and it would take me over. So I try to be well all the time. :) When I started sharing - I would get comments on how crazy this is because I am the "healthiest person they know" --- it was like I was talking about someone else. A phase of complete denial, and it lasted for quite some time. I laughed with Judy, saying how I would be able to wear the purple shirt! Steve thought it wasn't so nice how I would spring it on people, friends that are close to me, but I think I did that because I really didn't believe it was truly me that had cancer.
But it is me.
I have cancer.
But I am still strong.
I can still run.
I am still me.
After treatment and getting through that acceptance that this is going to be a "trek" to treat and get out of my system - I realize that I can still be "normal". I really don't know how each day is going to go -- some days I feel better than others and late in the afternoon is always tough. I get tired easy. I don't feel motivated to do anything extra (so NOT me) -- and well my mind is just all over the place and hard to focus.
SO this post is dedicated to being me, still strong, as the title says, from my friend Gregg who emailed me earlier in the journey -- "Cancer Ain't No Kryptonite" and you are still strong. You will beat it big time. There are so many emails that have been inspiring to me, with words of strength about me and for me ---- I am truly blessed with this O SO incredible support system that spans the country! :)
Sharing a couple of my flower photos -- my photography on my other blog has become quite an addition / obsession / distraction and really gives me strength and joy. Hope you like the photos.
Here are some notes from friends that I have found incredibly motivating & inspiring.....
Hang in there Nancy Supergirl. I have absolutely no question in my mind that even cancer will not even the playing field for all of the other runners who compete against you. I think this time cancer has picked on the wrong person - it doesn't have a chance against you.
I'm thinking about you!
From Cara Turano (Boston Determination Foursome)
Hope is the best thing to have AND I promise that if you run Chicago, I will run or run/walk every step of the way with you, holding your darn hand for every photograph possible! It would be my honor to run that marathon with you and in honor of you and in support of you.
I cannot wait to hear from you and of course you will be the cancer patient out running marathon....I think that means we can even slow down!! I am totally in for being your running partner - can we wear matching outfits??
From Ann McNamara, an ACS colleague in Illinois sent a nice note and has connected me to another amazing athlete, Kristin McQueen, who has cancer and has been running for ACS Determination since 2002, raised almost 100K and her goal this year for the 10/10/10 date is $10K. :) Her story is great on her personal page --- please read it - you too will be inspired by her!
My friend Jana also sent a message to me this week and included a link to her friend Jax who has been going through her own struggle with breast cancer. Jana and Jax are avid rock climbers, and both incredible athletes. Her story is a really great story and I have just begun to read! So great to hear of others going through cancer and staying fit and strong - as much as the body will allow.
There are so many that are "Running with Cancer" -- my dear friend Shelley S. from Tacoma sent me a book this week with that title. Can't wait to read it.
Got some great cards that always pick me up and make me smile! -- one from Anthony, volunteer leader from Starbucks, a note from Elaine, volunteer leader from Delta. Cards came from Kyla, Serena (my sister in law) and Steve's work all signed a great card and sent a sweet gift too!
Here is the poem from Serena's hand made card (she is a crafter and AMAZING!)
A New Day Soon Will Dawn
If life seems at its lowest ebb
because a day has gone wrong.
Let not your heart be troubled
For a new day soon will dawn.
And we can never be quite sure
Just what it has in store
Since each one is so different
Thank the one just gone before
As it penetrates the darkness
With its soft and tranquil beams
It calms even the most restless soul
ANd brings new hopes and dreams
So when a day has been troubled
And the night is dark and long,
Life up your fallen spirits
For a new day soon will dawn.
Thank you all for your thoughts, prayers, power and strength. It is so incredible to have so many people thinking of me and hoping me healthy! :)
Please leave a note if you stopped by -- I love to read your comments too!